http://www.jewinthecity.com/2008/03/god-and-seek/ Fri, 10 Feb 2012 00:25:50 +0000 hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.2.1 http://www.jewinthecity.com/2008/03/god-and-seek/comment-page-1/#comment-74 Tallymat Tue, 25 Mar 2008 23:22:02 +0000 http://174.132.89.171/~jewinthe/?p=120#comment-74 This is something I'd consider one of my biggest struggles. How to live with the consequences of never seeking out an apology for something that happened that you know you are wrong for, but which it is not really possible to seek forgiveness for. There are a few things that are on my list, things that I have worked hard to repent for, faults within myself that I realized I need to improve after I had hurt others, and I think I have come a long way in improving on these. But the fact remains that for the initial mistakes, I didn't get the forgiveness I know I should have gotten, because for various reasons I didn't deem it possible to ask for it. I have struggled with this idea of if it really was possible and I just avoided it, or if there could be a way to truly repent for an action but which you can't get forgiveness and which it's ok to not ask for it. I am glad to see that I am not the only one who has this dilemma, and I can see the point you are making and will try to remind myself of it if I find myself in a similar situation again, that sometimes these things are meant to happen, and that I just need to do my own part in learning from it, and finding G-d's hand within it. This is something I’d consider one of my biggest struggles.
How to live with the consequences of never seeking out an apology for something that happened that you know you are wrong for, but which it is not really possible to seek forgiveness for.
There are a few things that are on my list, things that I have worked hard to repent for, faults within myself that I realized I need to improve after I had hurt others, and I think I have come a long way in improving on these.
But the fact remains that for the initial mistakes, I didn’t get the forgiveness I know I should have gotten, because for various reasons I didn’t deem it possible to ask for it.
I have struggled with this idea of if it really was possible and I just avoided it, or if there could be a way to truly repent for an action but which you can’t get forgiveness and which it’s ok to not ask for it.
I am glad to see that I am not the only one who has this dilemma, and I can see the point you are making and will try to remind myself of it if I find myself in a similar situation again, that sometimes these things are meant to happen, and that I just need to do my own part in learning from it, and finding G-d’s hand within it.

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